loading any file from the save temple crashes the game?

[sissel]

basically what it says in the title, i haven't downloaded any addons, i never downloaded the 1.3 patch and im on the 1.4 fan patch :S
autosaves, manual saves, loading any of them will make my game unresponsive (no matter how long i wait)

and when i open the game, it only seems to load autosaves (ive now disabled autosaves because it causes more problems than issues for me) or exit saves ;; so that's my entire problem, i get reverted to an autosave from a while ago, and i can't reload to a file that i made just moments ago